Brew

Coffeehouse Rock is its own music genre now.  Only in the 21st century. Perched on a rock retaining wall, legs dangling over the edge, I'm sipping my coffee in the early morning sun, watching birds swoop gracefully across a backdrop of densely packed evergreens climbing layered foothills. The words start to come to me and for a minute I'm disappointed they'll fly away before I can capture them. Until I realize I can write with my camera. Only in the 21st century.

This weekend in Colorado has been a godsend; an excuse to unplug if I want one, yet connectivity available if I choose it.  His brother built a house in the mountains.  His sister-in-law has made it a home. It's rustic and glamorous all at the same time:   Queen Anne chairs upholstered in rich red brocades, bejeweled chandeliers, a gun sleeping in its leather holster on the massive carved walnut bedpost. 

In the evening we sit "in front", tucked in seats with bright orange patterned cushions, nestled in Mother Nature's Omnimax theater, 360 degree views of endless mountains. As darkness falls we stare up from the hammock, a star shooting across a speckled sky, the crescent moon setting in the west. Enveloped in such majesty I can't help but think how small we are.  Yet in this place we live large in all the ways that really matter.   

At daybreak we brew our coffee one over-sized mug at a time, crowned in a foam of whipped milk.  We crawl back into the king-sized bed, three or four of us tucked under warm quilts; we ask questions, contemplate answers, offer insight, witness epiphanies, howl with laughter, brim with tears. 

He comes outside to join me, our legs swinging side by side.  A deer comes into view.  I'm afraid this beauty may exit stage left before I can capture it.  Until I remember I can take a picture with my journal.  He tells me this buck is "in velvet", timid with soft, fuzzy antlers; a babe who can do nothing but wait patiently for the confidence and power he'll garner rubbing velvet off to reveal a hardened rack.

And so it is for all of us, in velvet at every age, fighting with ourselves to accept who we are, live out our values, expose the tenderness within.  We can get lost in the trappings of our racks, hiding behind their armor, masquerading in their ornamentation.  It takes a vacation like this to recalibrate.  And to think I debated about taking it. 

I smile as he spouts this trip's coffeehouse logic:  "There's never a good time to go on vacation; never a bad time to express love."  It really is all we need.  Even in the 21st century.